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An End of a Chapter

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You guys, its been a good (almost) two years in this small corner in the digital world.

I suspect you know what will be coming next.

Right now its time to say goodbye. I fully believe its time for me to go and search for some new adventures. Adventures with a lower level of stress and anxiety getting into my space.

You have probably noticed the lack of posting in the recent months.

I really struggled to post the few posts that did sucessfully “publish”. Anxiety and stress of this blog was weighting me down. Every time I logged on with the intent of posting my brain began filling with swirly clouds of darkness. I began to really try to push through those clouds to discover why it has been so goddamn hard to releast the crazy amount of words fluttering through my mind (in the process keeping me up at night).

  • My blog was started because of a school assignment:┬áthe words felt awkard and stiff when I first started on here. Simple because in the back of my mind what I was writing was being viewed by my teacher regardless if it was a school assignment or not. Unfortunately the stiffness continued and can still be read in the most recent posts.
  • My blog is not growing with me:┬ámaybe it is just me but recently I noticed that my voice has begun to grow. Though due to the fact this blog started out as an assignment when I was 18 many of the ideas I want to discuss, or ponder, just don’t fit. Its like a pair of jeans that just won’t fit, no matter what (even if WD40 is involved).

Truthfully there are some more reasons, as mentioned above anxiety and stress though are just a couple, these two in particular have been the biggest. The decision to take down my blog has been a big one. I discussed it with a number of people in real life and thankfully almost all have been wonderfully supportive.

So while I am not going to be taking down my blog till the weekend I just wanted to say goodbye.

And this is how I disappear…

Sleeplessness and Thinking

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There are just too many things running around my head right now.
It’s been at least a week, or maybe more, that I am aware of where sleep has evaded me. Just like that pesky mosquito in the hall, lingering just out of my reach, yet I can hear it.
At least one thing is going well. I’ve been busy reading and have successfully completed two books this week. Although this may seem to be like a fraction, probably like a quarter of what I normally read in a week, it’s okay.
I am finding it difficult some days to just let myself submerge into the worlds written by others and my own hand.
Maybe I should pick up my crochet again especially since I have to start two large Totoro that need to be finished before October and November.
And this is just a small amount of projects that need to be finished.
Currently my writing, as you can probably tell my blog too, has been gathering physical and digital dust.
I intend to fix this. Recently I have been poking around with some new ideas for one of my original characters, Adelaide, that I intend to try out.
Good thing my girl is adventurous!
Has anyone used the cue card method to plan out writing? I’ve been reading some articles and blog posts about the method online. From what I have read this method might be the key to my success for all my scattered ideas that relate to one story.
Another thing that I have been seeing online is character boards on pinterest and character collages. Do any of you use these? Cam you tell me what you think or any other methods that you use to visually encourage your character to grow?
Lists would be a good idea.

Happy Canada Day!

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A few minutes ago I stood outside, at the end of my street’s block, beside my mum and watched the fireworks devour the darkness.

While watching the fireworks I noticed a plane circling around and a twinge of jealousy ran through me. I would have loved to been a fly on that plane as it circled the fireworks shooting through the sky, witnessing the precious seconds of flame in a full 3D explosion.

Happy Canada Day to all of you whether you are Canadian, or not, at home or abroad.

Shine bright, dear fireworks. (Taken outside with my cell phone)

Shine bright, dear fireworks. (Taken outside with my cell phone)

Radios and Ghosts

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I just finished watching a CREEPSHOW dvd and found my brain chugging as I scampered up the stairs to my room to change into my pyjamas.
It feels so good to have some fresh inspiration again.

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Tiggy just chilling on my shoulder.

It doesn’t feel good having Tiggy the cat walk across my chest and settle his furry bum on my paper though. His enthusiastic purrs do make up for the uncomfortable moments when he settles himself, realistically short few seconds.
But now I am going to move to my room so I can finish writing in peace and no furball trying to chew up my paper.
I mean honestly, how much trouble can ghosts and a radio station really get into?

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Okay so I get that the title of this post is, well, trending on twitter and whatever other social media outlets. It ain’t going to stop me from using it though!!
I just wanted to drop a line to say how much I want to thank you all for reading my munchkin words over the time I have been running this blog; how I want to thank you for coming back even when I have disappeared for months and for sticking by me. I love each and everyone of you.
As many of you know I am, well now have been, in school to be a library technician. What you don’t know is that I have been on academic probation for the last semester and have failed to comply.
These are words I never wanted to say or type.
I feel sick to my stomach, not just because I have finally admitted that I am going to be seen as a failure for x amount of time, but because I have finally learned something about myself that explains I think why I am such a dipshit in school.
For now I leave you with this. I hope you will support me and comfort me as I tell the rest of my family.
I love you.